Saturday, December 24, 2011

Man plans, God laughs

Happy New Year!  I know you're thinking "It's not even Christmas, yet!"  I know.  But, for me, the new year doesn't start on January 1st; it starts on December 4th, the day I was born.  I am 20 days into the new year...the last year of my 20s!  And I must say for this year, my mindset on life has changed drastically due to last year's events.

I'm sure all 4 of my readers have that one song that is their jam that they can listen to on repeat.   Then, something happens in your life, and all of a sudden, that song sounds so different.  The words haven't changed...the beat is still the same...but whatever you went through makes you relate more to what the artist is saying in the song.  That's how I feel about "Laughing At Your Plans" by The Foreign Exchange.

From the moment we were little, we all made plans.  We planned on what we'll be when we grow up...to who and when we'll be married.   Then we lived life.  And life didn't give not-a-one damn about your plans.

That's where I am right now.  I made plans for life after undergrad.  And while certain plans weren't carried out, other great things happened in my life.  Like, straight awesomeness that wasn't planned!  But last year's plans not being carried out really hit me...hard.  It left me angry, hurt and depressed and thought I'd never recover.  Now, I'm at the point where I stopped making definite plans for my life.  I'm not out here living as if I don't have any responsibilities...or looking like a lost soul.  But you won't see me with any "To Do Before I Turn [insert age]" lists.*  There are some things that I'd like to do or goals I'd like to accomplish before I die, but if it's not meant to be, I can't force it.  I want God to laugh at my jokes...not at my plans.

So, I'm enjoying the now...and remembering to just let it be.

Happy New Year!

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*I'm not knocking anyone who does this.  Just speaking for myself.